Last Friday I sat in my office just like today, but with a very different feeling. I was preparing to follow God's voice and direction as He had clearly spoken to me to step down as the pastor of Jordan Creek Family Church. It was the craziest but the clearest thing God has ever asked our family to do. You can read the whole story here.
Sunday I told the story of what God was doing, and announced that we were resigning with no clear direction as to what we would be doing personally in ministry next. It was a very emotional day, with lots of hugs and tears in all directions. We spent the day thinking about all the things God has done in our lives and the lives of the congregation of JCFC.
Fast Forward to Monday evening at 7PM. We are out having dinner as a family when my cell phone rang. I answered and Pastor Ed Young from Fellowship Church in Dallas Texas was on the line inviting me to join the staff there. I was in awe of God's Timing and provision, as well as honored to be asked to serve at such an amazing church.
To say that God never leaves, never forsakes us and always provides is one thing. To actually put feet to faith is another. This week, our family in reckless abandon stepped out fully trusting that somehow, someway He was going to provide for us. And He did.
I cant describe how faith building for me it is to clearly hear Gods voice (thinking this is a crazy thing to do) and then obey it. All for God to show up and have the next step ready for me to walk in. This week I understand how the faith can move mountains. Not I have just read a story about it, but I have a story about it!
I have heard several stories of faith and obedience this week from many at JCFC. I will be excited to hear what God does as you step out in faith as well. It truly has been my honor to serve the city of Des Moines since moving to DSM in December of 2004.
Gods perfect timing. He's never late, He's never early. He's always right on time.
Be with us Sunday to hear how Gods perfect timing is working already in the Life of JCFC! Our leadership team has risen to the occasion, and are excited about the solid future of JCFC! You wont want to miss it!
This post is the most difficult post I've ever written. This is the bulk of the sermon from todays service.
A rubber band is only worth anything when it’s stretched.Un-stretched it serves no legitimate purpose.It has to be stretched to reach its fullest potential.
It’s truly amazing how God stretches you in areas of your life.As I take some time and look back over the last year in my life I’m truly amazed at what God has done in me.
In January of 09, I was offered an amazing position as executive pastor in a church in another state.The role would be to lead all pastoral staff, as well as develop and implement a 10 year church planting and satellite campus strategy for a quickly growing church of over 2000, literally a dream job.But I didn’t feel settled at all in my heart.God had planted me here in Des Moines, and I was completely settled with that. So I quickly turned it down.I was honored and thrilled and flattered all at the same time, but I “knew” it wasn’t for me.
As I shared all this with my accountability/mentors in my life, they freaked out on me.Each one challenged me as to why I wouldn’t even consider flying out there and looking at it.I said I knew I was to be here in Des Moines at the time, and left it at that.
I continued moving forward as the pastor of JCFC with full intentions of spending the rest of my life in Des Moines. By the late fall, I had really begun to feel God dealing with me about the possibility of leaving JCFC.I wasn’t even sure what to make of that thought?Was I, in myself, thinking those things?Or was God really trying to talk with me about stepping away from JCFC?
The next several months through Christmas were a very tumultuous time in my life.As I waited to hear a yes or no from God, I was praying and asking God for direction in my life and the life of Jordan Creek during this tenure.Dara and I prayed and wondered if God was using these nudges from Him, to get my Type A personality to stop being so focused at JCFC and listen to what God was really saying.Was He trying to get me to a place that I could lift me head up out the “zone” long enough to actually hear God saying it was time for me to be done at JCFC?I wasn’t sure, I just knew that over the Holidays I was at a breaking point mentally about what God wanted me to do.
I was just in a fog, emotionally and spiritually.Meanwhile my team is still pushing for direction and next sermon series and future outreaches.I was torn between 2 worlds.
On one hand I felt like God was changing my heart and dealing with me about stepping out of leadership at JCFC.This was such a hard conversation in my mind, I almost couldn’t have it.When you plant a church, its like having a child, you labor and sweat to get the baby on the ground, then, you spend years nursing it along, protecting it from disease and virus.You guard it, grow it, and love and encourage it.It becomes your life, your very fiber of being, almost your reason to live and be in ministry.
So thinking about leaving it, and turning it over to someone else seemed ridiculous.Yet on the other hand, I was feeling God tell me to do that exact thing.It didn’t make sense.I don’t have another job lined out.I don’t have thousands in savings; I don’t know what the next step would even be. But yet I felt God was dealing with me about resigning.
In February we took our team to C3 again.(Fellowship Church in Dallas, hosts an amazing pastor’s conference every year at their Grapevine, Texas campus.) It was an incredible time of ministry, and our guys where bursting at the seams to get back to DSM and “charge hell with a water gun.”We were all having incredible conversations, and they were excited about going to the next level at JCFC.
On Friday, Bishop Jakes spoke about a GPS, and hearing a word from God and walking in obedience to that word until you hear the next word of “turning right.”He related this to several Bible stories, including Peter walking on the water, and Abraham obeying God to sacrifice his promised son Isaac to the point of raising the knife, when God said Abraham Turn Right!There is a ram in the thicket…
For me this was an unbelievable message.I sat transfixed in the seat, asking God if he really was calling me away from Jordan Creek.Was He really asking me to step down from leadership, and walk away from the baby that Dara and I had worked so hard to birth?I thought, here I am at C3 with my team, and God you really are saying for me to leave?
I was overcome, silently weeping in the chair, as I told God I couldn’t make this kind of decision.What was I to do for my family?This isn’t the kind of economy to quit your job without some kind of plan.And what would happen to the church?We don’t have a building, we are still portable…
As Bishop was wrapping up the talk, I just quietly began to pray.I asked God as we started to stand as a congregation, to just confirm all this with someone who doesn’t know me, who doesn’t know anything about me, and who has no idea what is happening.I just couldn’t make that level of decision without really knowing, that I know, that it was God.I thought what if all this is just me, and I’m making a mistake.Again I prayed, “God you have to confirm this through someone else.”
Immediately God said to me, “Turn and have the lady in the purple suit behind you pray for you.”
I said, “What?Right here at FC in the middle of Bishops prayer?What if she’s crazy?What if she makes a disruptive scene?God, I cant…”
God quietly but very firmly said, “You just asked me to confirm this in you through someone else, turn and ask her to pray for you.”
So half-heartedly obeying, I turned sideways in front of my seat.Hands clasped together on my chest, sobbing as the Bishop prayed.I knew I was to ask her to pray for me, but honestly I was scared.So I said, “God let me take 2 deep breaths, then I will.”
One giant inhale, and exhale, ready to take the next one, and Bishop says, “Amen…you can be seated.”
I turn and sit right down.Pace or Preston takes the stage, and gives direction for lunch.I quickly say to myself that must have just been me.Surely God didn’t want me to have her pray for me…
I find Dara and we eat lunch in the Suite at FC.(FC has a guest pastors room for a small group of pastors set up with refreshments and lunch) I noticed Sister Purple Suit there, but didn’t give it much thought.Lunch ends well, and Dara heads out to feed little Uriah.I mill around for a few moments, talking with people in the suite before heading back towards the auditorium.To get there I had to pass through a small room with stairs that FC staff had turned into a small overflow room with tables and chairs.
As I made my way through the room, on my right, I hear a woman say, “That’s him, that’s the guy right there.”
Being the only guy in the room, I turn and ask if she needs anything.It is Sister Purple Suit seated next to another woman!I head her direction, as she is waving me to her. “I don’t need anything, but I do need to talk with you if you have a moment,” she says.I now begin to have goose bumps.
I lean onto the table to get a little closer to her, as she is already seated in the chair. “I don’t know if you recognize me, but I was seated behind you during the Bishop’s sermon.”I thought, boy do I ever recognize you; little do you know what has been happening in my head.
“Well, I’m glad I saw you walk by, because during the Bishops talk, I was drawn to you, and felt like I should pray for you.I know this all sounds strange, but If you would give me a minute, I would really like to tell you what God clearly spoke to me to tell you.He told me to reach out and pray with you during the end prayer time as you were standing sideways in front of your chair.But I disobeyed Him, and I cant get you off my mind,” she said with a faint quiver in her voice.
Trying to stop the floodgate of tears that I could feel coming from deep inside me, I said, “To make it weirder, I was sideways in front of my chair, because God had told me to turn and ask you to pray for me.”
“OH JEEESSSUUUS!” she exclaimed while she threw both arms flailing in the air and slide down a bit in her seat.
She regained her composure, and reached out and touched my hand that was still on the table.I was frozen solid, as I stood, bent over looking into her eyes.
She said, “This is what God said to me about you.Remember, I don’t know you, I don’t know anything about you, I don’t even know where your from.You might even work here, I dunno.But as you were turned sideways, weeping with your hands clasped together on your chest, God said, ‘You are a humble man.But I want you to know that I am finished with you where you are.You have done all that you can.You cant do any more.I’m done with you there.Now I want you to just be patient, and trust Me.’”
She then let go of my arm, and looked at me and said, “that’s what He said to me, I don’t know what your supposed to do with that, but I had to tell you today before I leave this place.By the way, who are you and what do you do?
Well, tears were burning down my cheeks, and I new the floodgate was about to break.But I thanked her for obeying the voice of the Lord.Then told her that I pastored a church in the Des Moines area.She went off on how she was meeting all kinds of pastors today…
Well I made my out, and began trying to find Dara.Uri had made a mess on her, and she needed to go back to the hotel to change.I quickly got the van and met her.
As I drove back the hotel, I was overcome with emotion as I retold her the story of God speaking to me via Sister Purple Suit so strongly.It probably wasn’t safe for me to drive through the sobbing.
We left C3 knowing God had clearly spoken to me about resigning the church, and trusting him.That was all in within the “high” of C3.
Well back home creates a new scene for me to deal with daily.Weekends are coming, staff asking about future series, all the normal lead pastor things.I just decided to pray and ask God to keep me in full time ministry, but if He had another plan, or a “break” between ministries planned I was perfectly satisfied to go back to the construction world.Whether that meant starting another construction business, remodeling, roofing, trim, granite, or selling XYZ product in Alaska or Florida.I was willing to go and do what He wanted me to do.
The thing was I just didn’t know what “that” was.I kept wrestling with the thoughts, that I should be planning something, I should be putting my resume together, maybe I should start calling some builders…Dara would encourage me and say, “God said to Trust Him.Not plan it all out, with multiple steps and systems of success.”She would say, “You’ve got to rest in Him right now, not trying to figure it all out and be the ‘make it happen guy.’He is our source.” –Thank God for a godly, wise wife.
I was praying in April, just pouring my heart out to Him, about being alone during this process, and not really sure whom I could talk with about all this that I was battling through in my mind.Who was safe?Who didn’t have vested interest? Who could be completely unbiased?
Two days later I got a call from a retired minister that I had never met.We had been on conference call together a few months back.He was offering me an opportunity to come to his coaching seminar for free in Minneapolis to learn how to effectively coach people through difficult decisions in life.We chatted a bit, discussing logistics and timing.I couldn’t commit 100% but thanked him for the offer.
As we were about to hang up, he stopped me, and said, “I don’t normally do this, but I just feel like I should.Do you ever find yourself lonely in ministry?Facing things in your life that are major decisions, that you just would like to dialogue with someone about?”
I cautiously said, “Yes, yes I do.”
He then said, “Well I’d like to offer you three free coaching sessions, if you’d like them.Are you facing any decisions you’re just not sure about, and would like to talk about?”
I thought, when can we start.Then replied, “Yes I do, can we set up a date?”
We put some times on the calendar and went from there.He then asked what was the nature of the topic.In a nutshell, I said, “God has told me to resign, but I have no position on the table, and that this is crazy.”I have had friends who have asked me what to do in these kinds of situations.I was the guy saying you can’t quit without another job.That’s crazy.You’ve got to provide for your family.
“This is going to be great to talk about, and to put your mind at ease,” he chuckled and said “I have done that twice as God spoke to me to resign and leave with no position in hand.”
Those next few phone conversations proved to be invaluable as we dialogged about what God had spoken to me in the last several months and confirmed in February.I processed out loud, the story and the confirmations, and finally fully admitted to myself that God was really in control and I am really not.
I put my selfishness and pride aside, and realized that God truly was going to be my source as well as the source for Jordan Creek Family Church.He is and always had been.
Sunday May 23rd, I will be resigning as the lead pastor of JCFC.Over the course of the next 3-5 weeks, we will be transitioning out of leadership, and onto the next phase of life and ministry that God has for my family and me.I don’t really know what that is, or even what it looks like.
I have spent this week talking one on one with our staff and key volunteers.Explaining the story and what God has been saying to me.It has been a tearful and emotional week, as I have shared my heart with some of the greatest staff a pastor could ask to serve alongside of.For me not to obey in this would almost negate all the teaching from the last 5 years, as I challenged our congregation to serve God with all their heart.After all He holds all things in His hands, and He is never caught off guard.He really is our source of income, strength, emotional stability and spiritual growth.I am fully trusting that as I raise the knife in hand, high above my head, in obedience to the word that God has spoken to me, He is going to say, “Josh Now I know that you really do trust me, turn right!”
So as my family waits patiently on Him, fully trusting Him to go before me, as only He can.I’m so excited to see what God is going to do, as our family walks in obedience to His Word.
I pray that this time is as galvanizing to Jordan Creek Family Church as it has been for me as an individual.I know that Gods ways are higher than ours, and He has brought each person to Jordan Creek for this time and this season.I pray that you would embrace the leadership here, and the man God is directing right now to take JCFC to the next level.I ask you to serve him, with just as much love and sincerity as you have served with me.
I know that some people plow, some people plant, some water, and God gives the increase.It’s been my pleasure to serve JCFC and the Des Moines area since December of 2004.It has been my honor to marry many of you, to baptize you, dedicate your children and watch you mature in Jesus Christ.I will continue to pray for you as God leads and directs all of us for His glory.
Had a great time last night at United. God presence was so powerful. It was great to see people who have grown up in the church in Sydney, as a youth group, so faithfully serving God and engaging others in worship last night.
It was also incredible to be a part of the food drive. We will delivery all the food later today to the Des Moines Dream Center. If you'd like to still donate you can, just contact Jed at jeds@jordancreek.org
Colin's highlight for sure was getting to meet Joel Houston. He was throughly impressed that Joels Dad is a pastor as well!
Do you ever just find yourself in a Funk? Emotionally, mentally, and spiritually just like "what?"
Especially when you know God has placed visions and dreams in your heart, and you find yourself wondering when those specific things are going to "come to pass."
I love the story of David. A regular guy whom God chose to use mightily. We often think of the heroic efforts of him killing Goliath, or leading the charge for Israel, and conquering the enemey... (we do think of his giant sin with Bathsheba, but thats another post).
The reality is that we often over look how David responded to be anointed king. He was chosen to be king, but since there was already a king in place, he went right back to tending the sheep. Later once he had an army of men following him, he had a few opportunities to take things into his own hands to become king, forcing the situation and kill Saul -Twice! But didnt.
Not sure thats how I would have responded honestly. It would have been easy to rationalize that this must be what God wants since its the second time He's served Saul up to me... So now must be my time to become king, thanks God.
But David, waited patiently for Gods perfect timing in his life. He waited for Gods Divine Direction for the vision and dreams he had to "come to pass."
James speaks of patience in a great way.
But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing. James 1:4
Wow, what a heady scripture when you really consider it. Perfect and complete -lacking nothing? Really? Mind blowing, if we let patience have its work in our life, we can become perfectly complete, lacking nothing.
Easy to read, easy to tell someone ELSE, but difficult to walk out.
If you wrestle with this area of your life, there are days you are in a funk. Just cloudy, as Im sure David was on occasion. But if you (me) really just hold on to what God has spoken to you, what he has played out for you in the dream theater of your soul, then patiently wait in His presence to become perfect and complete, lacking nothing.
God Im Yours. I know your still working in me, because I'm far from perfectly complete.
I just wanted to remind everyone that Easter is this Sunday! I know its a day filled with new outfits, eggs, and family time, but lets not forget that Easter is the day we celebrate the resurrection of our Lord and Savior.
I also wanted to remind you to invite a friend to be with us at JCFC for our newest series kick off called Just Ask. It will be an amazing morning of worship and creativity as we celebrate Jesus being alive and well!
Check out this awesome Testimony of a Miracle in EM and Amy Leonard's son Mickey. We have been specifically praying for healing in lives of people at church recently. Mickey was one of them, JCFC has been praying for. She sent me this email last night!
It is with UTMOST JOY that I send this message to you all today! I just received a call back from Mickey’s tummy doctor, and she told me that we can discontinue his antacid medication (he was receiving 1 tsp twice daily), AND his pulmonologist (lung doc) told us we can cut back to one breathing treatment a day, likely to be altogether discontinued in April!!!!!!
This is the most amazing gift! This is answer to prayers from many, yourselves and the prayer team of JCFC included! I think of all the nights Alana, E.M. and I said prayers and asked God to touch little Mickey’s legs to make them strong so that he could walk…and it lead to all of this! I seriously weep as I write this! I closed the door to my office, got on my knees, and cried. I am like any other mom who wants the best for her child, and because our church family stood with us in praying for change – LIFE change, God came right into our home and made that happen. Hallelujah!!!
Thanks for sharing this awesome news with us, Amy. We will continue to pray for you and your family!
Im reading a great book right now by Scott Wilson, pastor of The Oaks Fellowship, on the south side of Dallas. The book is called The Next Level, and it truly is amazing. Its a 31 day journey through the tests we see major Bible character walk through. Some pass the tests with flying colors, while others fail miserably only to face the same test again. Check this link for a daily video blog that tracks with the book.
Scott relates the tests God allows in our life to either a prison or a classroom. We can become bitter and angry about the test and run away (the prison thought) or we can embrace what God si teaching us while learning the lesson as we pass the test. I throughly believe that God is preparing each of us for what He has prepared for us.
So my reading for the day is some classic scripture about trusting God. Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.
And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. Keep putting into practice all you learned and received from me—everything you heard from me and saw me doing. Then the God of peace will be with you.Philippians 4:6-9 (NLT)
I want to remind you that Easter is just around the corner. It is a great time to invite a friend to be in service with you. The majority of people will come to church with you if you Just Ask.
Im telling you this Easter could very well be the most amazing service ever at JCFC. We will be kicking off a new Series called "Just Ask" on Easter Morning. You wont want to miss it as we discuss how our Heavenly Father wants to bless, lead, comfort, and protect you. All you have to do is Just Ask. Don’t miss this series on talking with God about the things we need, and the things He wants to do for us!
Thanks Peoples Church and Fellowship Church for the thoughts and creative elements for this series and kick-off on Easter!
Humanity by nature is resistant to change. People tend to resist change as a general rule, but if you'll notice change is happening all around us. (I hope that the winter soon changes to spring, but that's another story.)
Things are constantly changing.
My little girl, is quickly changing from a little girl to a young lady. Yikes. Restaurants and business change ownership. Bloggers are changing to Tweetering and FB. Senate, House, and other political positions change every few years. I have a pastor friend who is dealing with some very difficult staff changes. Relationships change through out the years.
Things change.
We sometimes dont like to admit it, but we change. I hope that we are not the same people we were in High School or college. Id like to think that God has changed me from the inside out to become more like Him.
Its interesting to watch those who are resistant to change, "just because."
Sadly when stop changing we die. Literally.
Life is all about change.
Im glad that God never changes, and He never stops changing me.
Synergy defined is "The interaction of two or more agents or forces so that their combined effect is greater than the sum of their individual effects."
I love this process, and I'm reminded over and over again that its a team that makes it happen every time. When we isolate ourselves we limit what God is wanting to do in us and through us.
Lately, Ive been asking myself, what are the ways we can win the most people for God, the fastest. My heart is stirred for those who dont yet know Him.
So the questions are: What are we currently doing that we can improve on? What are we currently doing that we need to stop? What do I need to do as a leader to grow and change? What do I need to do or equip the current leaders we have to grow? What uncultivated leaders do we have that we havent empowered to lead.
God help me to lead the way you would like for me to lead.
Ive been reading a great E-book about coaching the past weeks. Its from Newthing Network, and you should really check it out.
All of us at some point have had someone coaching or mentoring us. Unfortunately we may not have even known it! I think its vitally important to continue to reproducing leaders all around you. It doesnt mean you have to be an "expert" in the area, just willing to see potential in people and encourage them to go forward with their goals. I think we all need to be more intentional about helping others grow all around us.
From the E-book "Life Changing Conversations, A Coach's Guidebook"
"What is a coach and what does a coach do? In short, a coach is a leader whose intentional investment in the lives of other leaders encourages them to do better; better not just in their leadership role...but better, period. A coach calls out the best in a leader. The relationship between the coach and leader is the engine that God uses to drive the leader to reach their God given purposes."
Hey everyone check out my friend and fellow church planter Paul Stewart's most recent blog post.
He is doing a great job planting in Down Town Des Moines. They have been building steam all sumer and are launching this Sunday at the Temple for Performing Arts.
Pray God does amazing things through Paul, his bride Jessica, and the team the have assembled. We can never have too many churches in this city trying to reach people for Gods Glory.
Just spent some time this morning reading and catching up on some blogs before a few meetings and wrapping up this weekends sermon. Check us out Sunday, we are looking at some "capacity issues" from the story of Elijah, the widow and the flowing oil.
Here is a link to a great post by Perry Noble. Its so easy for all of us to get misaligned. Always a good idea to get a new alignment.
When marriage gets tough, the answer is not to run out on your spouse (not to mention the kids), but to stick it out.The problem with just leaving the relationship is that you have to take you with you!If you messed up the last marriage and didn’t learn anything, then you will mess up the next one too!The answer is to stay together, to let the dream die of “someone out there that’s better,” and realize that GOD IS BIG ENOUGH TO MAKE YOUR CURRENT MARRIAGE WORK!Time and again I hear of couples struggling to stay together and I can tell you that time and again there are only a few things that consistently will create the best odds of making a marriage last:
1.Spend uninterrupted time together every day.
2.Keep no secrets no matter how painful it is to reveal.
3.As and act of worship to God, begin serving your spouse immediately…even if you don’t feel like it.
4.Choose to never bring up divorce as an option.
5.Cut off all relationships (even friends and family) that encourage you to divorce your spouse.
6.If you need it, go see a counselor…I can hear you now saying “it’s too expensive!”Trust me, divorce attorney’s cost more.
I have to confess, I may come across a little strong here, because I married well above my head!Having said that, these principles work.Hope this helps.Comments anyone?
Lately I've been reading for my devotional times in I Samuel. I love reading the histories. I samuel is rich in the fact that Samuel's goal was to have an ear that hears the Lord regularly.
I love it in I Sam 2:21, Samuel grew up in the presence of the Lord.
Chapter 3 he hears God calling his name, and he simply responds with Im listening.
I pray as a Christ-follower that I, too, am growing up in His presence, and when He speaks to me I simply say Im listening , then follow through with what He says.
Simply put, "Speak Jesus, you have my undivided attention, Im all ears..."
I am working hard on reworking my weekly routine. It seems the more that needs to be done, the less gets done, if your not super disciplined to stay on task.
With that said, Im working hard to be finished with all the weekend items by Wednesday. Its not a 100% success yet, but I'm trying.
I used to have a meeting day on Tuesday where, id try to stack as many things then as as possible. But I'm finding that Thursday works better. It allows me to get a head of the week instead of playing catch up in Friday, or worse on Saturday!
We are also praying so much more as church directly for our city and congregation. There are over 40+ people committed to pray 10 minutes a day -one hour a week for this city.
1. The first part of the week was a whirlwind. Im trying to switch my meeting day to Thursday fro Tuesday. Ana ended up sick on Tuesday, so I had to help with her, as Dara is still on this semi-bed rest gig with the pregnancy. So that moved things around.
2. My grandma died on Wednesday and we left on Thursday to be with the family and speak at the funeral on Saturday.
3. Thursday night my phone feel off the dash and into an open cup of tea in the cup holder. I didnt realize it happened for about 5 minutes. When I pulled my BlackBerry out of the cup the entire screen was full of tea. Not good. Yeah, it still doesnt power on...
4. The hotel we staye din was nice, and the kids loved being there, but the internet wouldnt work right. So i had no email access or phone service. I wasnt pleased as I'm too addicted to being connected.
5. Funeral was Saturday, and we didnt get to leave STL until late by the time we went to the grave and then back to the church to eat with everyone. It was great to see so many family members from far away. My grandma was a wonderful woman and loved by many. Thankfully she is now back with my Grandpa and rejoicing with Jesus.
6. I was honored to be able to say some things about my grandma today and read the letters the family wrote to and bout her. It was a moving time, but I held my composure. I lost it years ago today at my grandpas funeral, as my role was the same at his as well.
I loved them both dearly, and they will truly be missed. I have to say I still dream of Grandpa Brown. I cant wait to run with him some day again in Heaven as we rejoice about Jesus toegther, and sit on some porch and sip a soda out of can with a straw with my Grandma Anna Ruth Brown. My little girl Ana was named after her, and our great friend Anna Tucker...
Grandma and Grandpa Brown you both will always be near my heart. Longing to see you again...
